Acupuncture

We scheduled our 1st acupuncture session and the Dr. is a Chinese man who seems very sure of himself.  When we got there, the place was in the back of a small building without a business sign out front.  He sat us down and took my husband's right wrist in his hand to feel his pulse.  The the left.  Dr told my husband he had weak kidneys.  We looked at eachother thinking it was very strange that he could tell from a pulse.  Then he felt mine and said mine was perfectly fine (thank Gd).  He asked my husband a whole bunch of questions about his past and current habits.  Then he took my husband into a room (I followed) where he stuck a bunch of these needles in him.  One in each inner shin, one in each forearm, 4 or 5 in his very lower abdomen, 2 in his right ear, and one on top of his head. Then he took this little machine that was plugged into the wall, and had wires coming off of it with little clamps on each end and connected them to 2 selected pins in his abdomen and the ones in his legs.  There were 2 different waves of energy alternating out of the machine and he said it felt like getting kicked in the balls!  Whoo am I glad that wasn't me.  I have zero tolerance for things like that.  I would have been in tears! It lasted 20 minutes.

I really hope this works out.  He said he could get my husband's sperm count up to 20-21 million within 3-6 months, but he has to quit smoking =\  How is THAT going to happen?  Dr said he'll do the acupuncture for that too, but not yet.  He's also going to give him herbs in a pill form to take daily.  (Man, this is going to be expensive, but nothing compared to what IVF would be.)  The 1st session was $120 and every session after that will be $60 (twice a week).  Then the pills are going to be $240/month.  I hope this all works sooner rather than later.  He said if the treatment were for me it would have been more expensive.

Wish us luck, I'll let you know how it turns out!!

Her Baby Shower... =o\

As odd as it is, I thought I'd have a lot more jealousy issues about all of my married friends conceiving and giving birth to their 2nd babies already when I can't even conceive my first.  But it's not really like that.  I feel more alone that no one I know is going through this.  Even if they were, it's not like either of us would admit it.  Tomorrow night I have yet another baby shower to go to.  My friend's baby shower was a couple of weeks ago and tomorrow night is her sister's.  Oh joy and happiness as everyone looks at my bloated (very unpregnant belly) and asks if I'm pregnant, what I'm waiting for, why we're not getting on it, and reminds me of how difficult it would be to conceive if I wait. 

Thanks for the advice!!  Let's go home & cry.

My First Blog

Hi All,

We've been trying to conceive for 9 months now.  Still no baby, but thus was born my first blog.

There's been a lot of heartache along the way, and it just seems to get harder over time.  Wasn't time supposed to heal wounds & not make them deeper?  It's so hard and I just cry more & more every month.  I know there's so many people out there with the same hardship that I'm going through, and people who are going through much worse.  I thank Gd every day that I'm not going through worse..  but if there's so many people going through the same thing, why do I feel so alone?  I'm too ashamed to tell my friends & family about what we've gone through so far, and it makes it so painful not to be able to talk to any of them about this.  Now I'm reaching out to the whole world so we can share.

What's your story?